#122

#121

#120

even though you may not know it,
i think about you every day.
you're in my thoughts and prayers,
and i miss you like crazy lady.

life happens.

#119

missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them,
or the last time that you talked.
it's about that very moment when
you're doing something,
and you wish they were right there
next to you.

#118

is it more awe-inspiring to suppose that a transcendent God fashioned the cell, or to consider that the living organism was created by the evolving biosphere?


i have absolutely no idea.

#117

'dead girl walking,' the boys say in the halls.
'tell us your secret,' the girls whisper, one toilet to another.
i am that girl
i am the space between my thighs, daylight shining through.
i am the bones they want, wired on a porcelain frame.

#116

stomach, please shrink.
mind, please ease.
reflection, please start smiling again.
one day i want to look at myself for thinspiration,
not some stupid hipster
girl on tumblr.

#115

what would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

#114

i wanna be rich
and i want lots of money,
i don't care about 'clever'
i don't care about funny.

i want lots of clothes,
and a fuck load of diamonds,
i've heard people die while they're trying
to find this.

and i'll my clothes off
and it will be shameless
cause everyone knows,
thats how you get famous.

#113

"In today's mass societies, it takes only one percent of people making a dedicated choice
- contrary to the mainstreams choice - to create a movement that can change the world."

Mark J. Penn
Microtrends - Small Forces Behind Tomorrow's Big Changes

#112

so, i'm not really sure where i went wrong.
(actually thats a lie - i know where i went 'wrong', but the word 'wrong' in this context doesn't seem to describe what's happened)
i slept to little, and 'studied to much'
and holed myself in texts and cheap coffee,
the typical life of most university students.
i stayed in on saturdays,
stayed up late fridays,
skipped lots of meals and ate all the wrong things.
and did i mention the copious amounts of cheap coffee?

however - i tried.
i tried to keep in touch, i tried to the best of my abilities.
but the fact of the matter is, unless you were either sitting next to me
reading a textbook, or the actual textbook itself,
there wasn't to much of me to be spread around
to other things.

i tried talking to you,
i tried reaching out, to the best of my ability.
but i can't apologize for these things;
studying to much
and sleeping to little.

so, here we are.
january, 2011.
three A's up and a few friends down
(or so it seems for now).


but hey,
i'll always have cheap coffee, right?

#113

if i ever push you away, i don't really mean to,
when i tell you i don't want to
talk about it,
i do,
i'm just looking for the right words.
give me a minute.
if i can tell you, i will.

see, i try to be this balance of perfect and
real at the same time.

i'm still working on the ratio.

when i get really quiet?
its because i have too much to say,
and i'm not really sure where to start.

i miss you,
but space is good too i guess.

these days, my head is just a complicated pile of
thoughts,
full of fears and cravings and dreams and
loves and this tangled up
nostalgia for the past and the present all
at once.

i am flawed,
i am human,
i am broken.
but i am trying.

i am two hands and one heart and one head,
going in 1000 different directions,
all at one time.

let's dance,
cause i can't do it all alone forever.

#112

in the end,
your just as broken as the rest of us.

#111

i shoot the lights out
hide till it's bright out
whoa, just another lonely night
are you willing to sacrifice your life?

#110

"The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

#109

kill me now.

#108

#107

and so i will stand and extend
the least warming of all welcomes
to you,
i can't say you were missed while you were gone.
we are all ready this time,
to stand and fight for a
right that
is hers and ours alone.
this is her body,
her soul, and her war to fight,
all of us
small soldiers by her side
prepared to defend
no matter the cost.
the fight for a lifetime
begins now,
and i must say, it is my greatest belief that
you, alone and by yourself,
do not stand a fighting
chance.

#106

your not fooling anyone, you know.

#105

lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
but lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall