#20

well did you think i was lonely,

when you saw me that day?

well i was only waiting,

'cause i wanted you to stay.

and did you see all those sparrows?

flying away that day,

well i coulda kept them locked up,

coulda looked at them that way.

oh but i let them go.

oh but i let them go.

oh but i let them go.

grace weber band. www.thesixtyone.com

#19

it's been an odd couple of days.

erik erikson was a developmental psychologist and psychoanalyst known for his theory of social development in human beings. a follower of freud, erikson had a passion for psychology from infancy and pursued this passion for the length of his career. his theory on social development split the major 'events' of life into eight stages;

hope - trust vs. mistrust

will - autonomy vs. shame/self doubt

purpose - initiative vs. guilt

competence - industry vs. inferiority

fidelity - identity vs. role confusion

love - intimacy vs. isolation

caring - generativity vs. stagnation

wisdom - ego integrity vs. despair

"no matter how successful you are in work, you are not complete until you are capable of intimacy"

when i first read this statement, my thoughts were only of how ridiculous this seemed. what was meant by intimacy? that you aren't complete until you are capable of having sex? ridiculous.

but then i began to consider the true implications of the word intimacy.

after digging my mind out of the gutter, i realized that the idea of intimacy was so much more than what it seems to be on the surface. with my first thought being sex, i started to think about what comes along with that, and how a relationship builds to that point. your whole life is spent with yourself. over a course of time, you learn how to be yourself, love yourself, and ultimately you learn to trust yourself. you learn your own morals, you trust in your own beliefs, and act as an independent support team for yourself. you are all you've got to depend on.

and then you have to share all that with someone else.

with the act of becoming intimate with another, you are willing to give all the trust you've built in yourself to someone else to share. by giving your self-trust to another, you also learn to trust in them.

#18

lately i've been feeling lost.

like i can't quite pin my next move.

last year at this time, i felt like i was on the move, like i was being pro-active.

the first month of 2010 is almost over, and i feel like i can say that i've accomplished nothing.

i'm unsettled by the fact that i don't know what's coming next,

where to go next, what to do next.

it's not always easy, having the world at your fingertips, and i'm sick of grasping at straws.

i'm craving something solid and concrete, that i can sink my teeth into and

pursue with passion.

what happened to my drive?

and where do i go next?

help.

mmmmpostsecret.

#16

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire;

he set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.

#15

it's been a while.

let's talk beauty.

beauty is life.

beauty is you.

beauty is laughter.

beauty is lonesome.

beauty is diverse.

beauty is experimental.

beauty is homeless.

beauty is imperfect.

for every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it.

beauty is everywhere, just look around.

#14

i don't get you.

i'm everything you wish you could have and everyone you wish you could ever be,

all combined into one, head-strong, fiery package.

why do you spread so much hate?