#50

this awkward silence makes me crazy

#49

to let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means i can’t do it for someone else.
to let go is not to cut myself off,
it’s the realization i can’t control another.
to let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
to let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it’s to make the most of myself.
to let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
to let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
to let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
to let go is not to deny, but to accept.
to let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
to let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
to let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what i dream i can be.
to let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

to let go is to fear less and love more,
the time to love is short.

#48

i missed this.

#47

“Freeing yourself was one thing;
claiming ownership of that freed self was another.”

Toni Morrison

#46

“Beauty is that which attracts your soul, and that which loves to give and not to receive. When you meet Beauty, you feel that the hands deep within your inner self are stretched forth to bring her into the domain of your heart. It is the magnificence combined of sorrow and joy; it is the Unseen which you see, and the Vague which you understand, and the Mute which you hear - it is the Holy of Holies that begins in yourself and ends vastly beyond your earthly imagination."

Khalil Gibran

#45

"tonight? that's so out-of-character for a saint."


you so easily choose the sinners over the 'saint',
come sunday morning, you glorify yourself
to Him, readily accepting what you do not deserve.
although my faith is shaking,
i know this much is true,
lower your chin from it's poise, my friend,
for now we're just about through here.

#44

rain pelts my windows and grey clouds cover my sun.
i have not left my bed since 12:30.
bon iver is my best friend.


i'm fine with all of this.
what is wrong with me.